爱与被爱

如果有个爱你的人， 和一个你爱的人，
你会选择哪个 ？

人如果到这时候出现了犹豫，
就代表了爱你的人， 肯定你不爱，
而你爱的人， 肯定不爱你。
这时候如果需要做出决定，
也只不过是在接受和付出中，做出选择。

在一个爱你的人的怀抱里， 虽然很温暖， 但是
既然你不爱他， 你要怎么带着亏欠接受这份温暖。
除非你对他有了那份爱， 不然你也只是在填补自己的寂寞时，伤害了爱你的人。

在你个你爱的人面前， 多勇敢追求爱情都好，
如果没有了理想回应， 谁都会因此变得无比脆弱。
付出了爱， 出于自愿， 因为有了爱，就算他的身边不温暖，
你是否也会因此爱上了那份冰凉感 ？

想了又想，
如果是我，我选不了那个爱我的人。
所以， 也许， 我会选择寒冷-- 那个我爱，但不爱我的人。

伤害人对于我来说， 本来就是一件很不公平的事。
我不觉得伤害一个人是多理所当然的事， 理由再多， 结果都是在伤害。
说了再多， 说什么给予人的伤害， 都只是为了对方好， 虽然是对，
但绝对不能说，自己是对的那一方，因为你永远都不是受害者，而是伤害人的人。
两个字-- 亏欠

爱人对于我来说，虽然称不上美丽，但至少你是跟着自己的心走。
往你要的东西去付出争取， 虽然结果不一定是拥有，
虽然路途也许寂寞，
但至少努力途中， 他的一举一动，不管是开心或伤心，
都是出于爱。
也许他的一点点关怀，就能让你开心一个月。
女生们， 是吗？

当然大家都有不同意见，我的个人意见， 绝对没有针对什么，
只是我的个人观察罢了。
如果是你，
你会如何选择 ？



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ZZSF The Dream Makers

Yea, you're probably seeing my new blog design now.. oh yayyy~ As usual, i seems to be so bonded with vintage which i dun feel like changing it everytime, so, vintage background just like old times, but definitely more brighter than the old one =)
Spot the new ad in my blog, please help me by clicking it thanks <3 p="">

Okay, back to the point. We'll , people who knows the title knows that its actually a drama, a sg drama actually. I usually dun really watch sg dramas but i found this drama interesting and it actually makes me watching episode over episodes, drama marathon the whole day.

Why is it so interesting ? I duno oso...
Maybe its because it reflects the reality world more than normal dramas. Yet it shows more in the entertainment industry, which somehow seems interesting at times. Not to forget, the cast, I like Chen Li Ping and Zheng Hui Yu, after the drama i love Rui En and Jeanette Aw as well. Of coz la the male character are awesome too, but i think drama focused more on the female's acting.

I like the role Fang Tong Ling by Rui En,
Its a comedic character which brings alotsa smiles =) I just can't get enough of her ! haha

I like the couples too, it's great to have Tong Lin to be with Jason at the end <3 but="" div="" du="" hillarious="" i="" like="" moments="" much="" peng="" s="" she="" the="" when="" with="" zhan="">

The way of their speaking catches my eyes too, or should i say my ears ? lol
It reflects the relationship between people, the reality kind. It reflects the adulthood, where people used to aim, dream, love, forgive and forget. It's just a style of matured living i guess, where people dun waste time to think of the little things that we used to care, but to focus more on the problems in front of us.

I did learned alot from the drama =)

The dream makers..
Check it out if you haven't.=)

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I decided... to CHANGE

I know i'm gonna hate myself and regret for blogging at this hour because i'm actually having a exam paper tomorrow morning, yet it's a final exam..LOL..

I don't know how many times i've been willing to change, but how far did i went ? Few steps ahead i guess... Sometimes, I really think that people gets the best when they are rich, i mean, rich people they get to have everything, clothes, food, lifestyle, cars etc etc ETC... Its something that normal people dream of, having all that in their palm. OH WELL, life ain't easy... I know i'm not up to that standard of living, being nice and easy, simple and cozy is already enough for me =)

SO,
The change i've stated there is, about myself, my blog, my way of living, my way of treating, my way of caring, and of course my appearance =)

It's only some bits and pieces of concept in my mind which i dun know how to complete it for now, hehe, but for sure the first thing i'll start, its gonna be this blog! There's gonna be some makeover around here so stay tuned ! As i will be more active with my blog =) More pictures to be posted too =)))

End of this post i actually felt lame because i'm blogging about a stupid decision at the middle of the night before a final exam paper in the morning.... ANYWAY LARH...

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Being serious

I'm actually producing chinese words in my head while im writing this post, thanks to two of my fabulous talented frens yet bloggers who wrote deep rooted mandarin which im not even to be compared of .. so its better for me to continue blogging in manglish.... HEHE.. I'm Malaysian...

Its funny though, the time when u wanted to express, lotsa lotsa things that happens to you, but u just cant find the right person to start with. I mean every person is busy with their life, I cant say people are that heartless to refuse but i really dun want to knock on a cold door, can't stand the freeze.... Some people are not suitable cause i don't want to start with someone related to the point, i dun wan to bad talk and make people have the same feeling towards somebody while that person did nothing wrong on them... I shud be the one hating them, not everybody.... ='S

Another funny thing to laugh about is, I dun understand why, like why do people gets to ignore the feelings of people who keeps quite.. Being silent doesn't mean that u have the right to ignore my feelings, to hurt me, to insult me, and take things away from me.....Don't cross the limit, its okay u take all the rubbish, but dun take away those i appreciate... 我不是什么时候都可以没关系， 不用紧。

Pathetic...



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Okay, IM BACK !

 An old pic of mine after a wedding dinner, ignore the wounds on my face tq, its all better now

I'm back to blogger, and i'm saying this seriously which i really do hope that it last... hahaha......Thanks the the special one who reminds me about my blog which i eventually forgot half of it already for the past few months.. Now i'm back so you can read =))

Hmm, let me think, what happen for the past 2 months after my emo post...

I've been around Kuching for sure.. haha.. I've went to Matang 3 times in this 2 months plus with totally different people..

This is when i went with my colleagues, i have too less photos on the other 2 trips..lol

  



I went for movies !! Especially FAST 6 !!!!!!

I've been waited for fast 6 for a year now and its finally here! I was damn good and i'm happy with letty joining back the team.. it was fantastic and i can't wait for FAST 7 !! Jason Statham OMG !! It's just gettin better n better...


And for recently, of coz its gonna be World War Z and White House Down...
I prefer white house coz its more funny and interesting for me though.. while WWZ isn't the my kind of movie i guess..lol.. its okay larhhh..

As for the stuff that i've been actually very busy with in this two month is, my project !
My class are going to organize a real event as our semester project, all of us was so busy with it and now its almost time for it to glow,

Its only 17 days till the event, its about time we put every puzzle in one .. FIGHT FOR IT !!

If your interested feel free to join or ask or like our page for more info !

I'll blog more i the future !
XOXO



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26042013

突然想要用华语写部落，感觉有点怪。。。 呵呵。。。。

两个月的假期剩下了一个礼拜， 虽然两个月过得很空虚， 但是也没有很期待开学， 人生还真的是充满了矛盾。 往往都是该忙的时候不忙， 不该忙的时侯又忙到晕， 莫名其妙。

有时候还真的不懂怎么面对20岁的人生， 但我很庆幸的是今年过了很充实的生日！
我觉得我花了快一个礼拜庆祝吧。。哈哈哈

不管是跟家人， 姐妹淘， 同事。。。 我都很感谢你们！

下个星期开学了，
到现在课程表都没有， 都不懂是我这个学生烂还是学校烂， 连开学日期都没有通知， 我最好知道几时去上课。。。 唉， 无言。。。

不过开学有个好处是， 可以打发一些时间， 让自己可以忙一些， 就不会莫名其妙很空闲的坐在这里些一些很emo 的东西。

其实不是我很想写， 只是偶尔也想要找个地方发泄，
感叹一下这个世界为什么可以相信的人少得可怜，
感叹为什么付出真心， 信任的那一方， 往往都是受伤， 
用真心去做每一件事情难道很难吗 ？

发生的这些事，

有我后悔的，
后悔当初是自己先转身不回头看，
现在却想要赖人家在自己回头的时侯已近不再原地等候。
从一开始的期待， 到绝望， 怨不得别人。
但希望你也不会怪我冷漠，
毕竟一开始， 我的信任就是被你糟蹋的，
才会换来今天的结果。

现在也不能怪自己不够坚强， 承受不起自己的决定。


也有我失望的，
虽然不是期待而失望，
但是有可能失望而绝望。
对于一些深不可测的心机游戏，
我玩不起， 怪也只能怪我笨 ，
没有能力平起平坐， 只能在后面等待我要的结果。
我不想违背自尊， 做出我不想做的事，
所以我只选择我觉得对的。


我多想选择逃避，
逃了几次，还是一样回到现实。
现在能做的， 也只不过是相信会有更好的明天。

疯吧， 哭吧， 笑吧， 这就是人生。 =)